After reading Pearl’s challenge last week, there is a verse that has popped into my mind… Romans 5:3-5 NIV: Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into… Continue reading The 52 Week Challenge –Week 10
Ephesians 4:21-24 (NIV): …when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
Last week, Pearl encouraged us to be grateful for the gift of intimacy with our husbands. And I must say, in line with my #21daysofthanks, it is becoming easier to show and feel gratitude. For many things – my hubby, my daughter, my home, my faith, even for the tough time I’ve been through over… Continue reading The 52 Week Challenge –Week 8
Last week Pearl encouraged us to focus on being grateful for sexual intimacy – it’s hard to feel grateful for something you don’t feel that you have. But, I realised that I DO have this – I just need to find a way of unlocking it. And in line with my #21daysofthanks, I have spared a moment this week to give God thanks that He has created us so well, that each part fits together perfectly – in perfect synchronicity.
Giving myself permission to be a sexually charged wife is hard. It is not something that my brain seems able to compute or even register. However, what has happened this last week is that I can feel I am becoming more aware. More aware of when last, how long ago, the silences, the absence – all of that is filtering through into my consciousness.
Ask. Seek. Knock.
The idea being an active pursuit to understand whatever it is you need to understand. That was last week’s post from Pearl from the Oyster Bed. And just after I wrote this post last week, I got what I think is a vision from God. God showed me a huge, wooden door. And on the other side of the door is everything my heart ever desired. A good, strong and healthy marriage with my man – fun, laughter, sexual intimacy, safety, a life lived full of abundance. But I was standing on the wrong side of the door. I knew that all that I wanted was waiting there for me, but I was too scared to go through. Something was holding me back – fear, ignorance, pride, arrogance. Whatever it was (or is) I could not bring myself to knock on the door and go through. And it was as if God was encouraging me to go through this door – His blessings are waiting there for me.
There are days when I just don’t feel like it – the battling, the trying, the anxiousness, the fear…. Days when the staying in bed is easier than the getting up, when the staying at home is easier than the going to work, the giving up is easier than the carrying on. But, what God teaches us in the commitment, in the perseverance, in the “hanging in there” is that we trust Him no matter how we feel. On the day that I don’t feel like it, I can do it because God has called me to honour Him in all that I do. On the days when it is easier to stay in bed, I go to work because this is God’s plan for my life. On the days when I feel like quitting, I hang in there, because God has called me to finish this race.